365 Challenge: Day 71 – Dark

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Dark: absence of, or very little, light

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When I chose the word “dark” for today, I thought readers may assume I was going macabre and evil. And while that may be a good topic for the future, as there is a little sinister part of me that is dark (in the books I read), today, dark refers to the brightness of a light. So… now you’re probably thinking I’m a little peculiar to choose this as a personality-type trait. But it’s true, I prefer to be in dark, or less bright, environments. Perhaps I should explain…

I’ve mentioned before that eyesight isn’t one of my strengths, which has always meant I’ve felt ‘in the dark’ over a great deal of things. It also means my eyes are very sensitive to bright lights. As a result, I tend to keep the lights on a lower setting than most others. Whether I’m watching TV, resting, or even having a casual conversation, I prefer a dim light… sort of mood-inducing lighting. Even when I’m reading, the lights are on only as high as necessary to not strain my vision while reading the words. It feels more calming and relaxing, rather than as though I’m under a microscope being observed by everyone around me.

Many fear darkness. I do not. I’m not saying I’d be happy to be locked in a room with no lights, nor would I want to roam a dangerous place without any way to see what’s around me. I simply mean it feels natural to have a bit of shade, a way to hide a little, from the surroundings. Bright lights tend to make me feel like I should be up jumping around, being very active, almost on stage for all to see. My quiet nature likes remaining in the background, so this makes sense based on what I’ve noted before in the 365 posts.

But darkness is also a place to go when I need to think. I’m easily distracted by noise or moving objects. If I ever need to mull over an important decision, let my emotions control me, or absorb serenity, I need to be in the dark. To me, darkness is like that stage before life begins. It’s a moment of silence to ponder all that could happen… all that you want to experience. It’s the few minutes before the world consumes your innocence, your opinions and your actions.

Darkness, not bright light, is the initiation of something for me. And that seems a bit odd to say it aloud, but it’s how I associate change or transition. Darkness is that period between two situations, two people, two answers, two of anything… like bookends, leaving what happens in between as a place for all to see. And when I need to re-boot, darkness is the source of “new” for me. I see this as a healthy mindset. It’s not a fear. It’s not a way to avoid something. It’s how I can process growth. It’s that opportunity to reflect on what needs to transition.

Think about how you feel after an intense emotional situation. You’re drained. You feel winded. Your body might even hurt. You need to re-group. You need to find energy. Some people rush to the gym or a sport to revitalize. I search for darkness. I listen to the vacuum around me. My eyes search for the patterns or lines, drawing me towards things I could not see when I was distracted by everything the light had shown me. {I’m not being figurative here… I’m purely talking about true absence or presence of light}

Few often think about these things, from anytime I’ve mentioned it to others. How about you? Do you prefer light or dark lights? Which gives you more energy? What about the brightness of light propels or detracts how you behave?

About Me & the “365 Daily Challenge”

I’m Jay and I live in NYC. By profession, I work in technology. By passion, I work in writing. I’ve always been a reader. And now I’m a daily blogger. I decided to start my own version of the “365 Daily Challenge” where since March 13, 2017, I’ve posted a characteristic either I currently embody or one I’d like to embody in the future. 365 days of reflection to discover who I am and what I want out of life.

The goal: Knowledge. Acceptance. Understanding. Optimization. Happiness. Help. For myself. For others. And if all else fails, humor. When I’m finished in one year, I hope to have more answers about the future and what I will do with the remainder of my life. All aspects to be considered. It’s not just about a career, hobbies, residence, activities, efforts, et al. It’s meant to be a comprehensive study and reflection from an ordinary man. Not a doctor. Not a therapist. Not a friend. Not an encyclopedia full of prior research. Just pure thought, a blogged journal with true honesty.

Join the fun and read a new post each day, or check out my book reviews, TV/Film reviews or favorite vacation spots. And feel free to like, rate, comment or take the poll for each post. Note: All written content is my original creation and copyrighted to me, but the graphics and images were linked from other sites and belong to them. Many thanks to their original creators.

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12 thoughts on “365 Challenge: Day 71 – Dark

    BrizzleLass said:
    May 22, 2017 at 3:35 PM

    I love the darkness, I like to keep lights low, prefer candlelight to artificial light. Bit on the flip side I love sunlight, I am equally happy on a bright sunny day to be outside in the sun, although I usually hiding behind sun glasses and a big hat!

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      James J. Cudney IV responded:
      May 22, 2017 at 4:15 PM

      We are similar… but I’m not so big on the bright sun. I enjoy it for a minute or two, then I run! 🙂

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        BrizzleLass said:
        May 23, 2017 at 9:54 AM

        Haha! I do run these days, but only because the sun likes me a whole lot less than I like it! 😂

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    Rae Longest said:
    May 22, 2017 at 7:43 PM

    I’m with you on dim lighting and quiet sounds. My Irish skin burns after 15 min. in direct sunlight, and I get a histamine reaction if I have lotion or perfume on then spend thirty minutes in the sun or in heat-inducing activity ( like playing badminton). I guess I’m just a sensitive gal’ LOL

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    Rae Longest said:
    May 22, 2017 at 8:01 PM

    I like the sound of that–we’ll look like Grandma and Grandson or Great Aunt and Great Nephew!

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    therobinsnest2017 said:
    May 23, 2017 at 12:49 PM

    I need the light. I love the sun.

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    Tag: This-Is-My-Truth-Now | BrizzleLass Books said:
    June 19, 2017 at 5:30 AM

    […] Dark, I nearly always wear black, even in the summer (which drives my husband nuts), I also like the dark, I’m a night owl, I have bad insomnia so I’m at one with the night. I’m not afraid of the dark, of being out in the dark, of things that go bump in the night. I have psychosis that goes hand in hand with having bipolar and I see some strange things especially when it’s dark and I’m at ease with that. I love the dark side of things, I love fantasy which tends to be darker reading material. I like heavy metal which tends to be darker music (unless you know where to look), I love dragons, and skeletons, and vampires. […]

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    TAG: This Is My Truth Now – Angie Dokos said:
    June 25, 2017 at 8:36 PM

    […] Dark, I nearly always wear black, even in the summer (which drives my husband nuts), I also like the dark, I’m a night owl, I have bad insomnia so I’m at one with the night. I’m not afraid of the dark, of being out in the dark, of things that go bump in the night. I have psychosis that goes hand in hand with having bipolar and I see some strange things especially when it’s dark and I’m at ease with that. I love the dark side of things, I love fantasy which tends to be darker reading material. I like heavy metal which tends to be darker music (unless you know where to look), I love dragons, and skeletons, and vampires. […]

    Liked by 1 person

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