Day: June 29, 2017
Momentary: lasting for a very short time; brief
My left eyelid fluttered open a moment before my right, then promptly closed in protection from the blaring stare of the sun searing towards its core. The warmth of the air dancing on my skin comforted me until the gentle breeze alerted the entirety of my surroundings. The dirt was firm yet it felt soft against the tips of my fingers and the curve of my neck, as I realized I lay flat on my back. I looked all around, breathing in the lustrous scent of a familiar flower and listening to the faint and unremarkable hum of an insect’s life beating somewhere nearby. Two questions immediately plagued my semi-conscious mind: Where was I and what was I doing on the ground?
At some point today, preferably during the light of day, find five (5) minutes where you can be alone and uninterrupted. While five (5) minutes is a lot of time to ask, it’s really not compared to the vast number of minutes remaining in your life. And though it can be difficult with our jobs and families around, it is important to embrace these moments of solitude to allow any chance of success in this experiment. Close your eyes. Forget everything going on and every person in your life. Let your mind relax. Ignore anything trying to penetrate its borders. And in these five (5) minutes, do five (5) things if you can:
- Open your eyes and focus on something living and breathing — other than a fellow human being.
- Attune your ears to a sound made in nature — not produced by humankind.
- Inhale a deep breath through your nose and contemplate where it came from.
- Taste a piece of gum or mint, your lunch or run your tongue against the back of your teeth and gums.
- Touch something nearby that appeals to you, or even gently run your fingertips against one another and think about that sensation.
How do you feel? What are you thinking about during each of these five (5) moments?
Have you ever truly taken a moment to think about the fact that you are real? Not contemplating life and death. Not being thankful you are alive. Not grateful you have time to pursue the things you want to do in life. I mean that you are a living organism… a sentient being with abilities and functions that maintain your ability to see, smell, hear, taste and touch? Recognize what’s happening without you knowing your body took several steps to make that action happen.
That’s what I thought about this morning when I woke up. I imagined a dying person laying in their bed, knowing that they have less than ten breaths left before their days are over. I thought about my own life, sensing my chest’s slight move upward and downward, the air conditioner’s constant mechanical breathing, noticing the appearance of my bedroom and began wondering… everything around us is happening without an acute sense of awareness truly understanding it. And in those moments, I realized how little I know about life. How do my eyes choose what to see? What alerts my ears and nose to recognizing something I like and dislike? Does the texture of something feel the same to me as it does to someone else?
It’s moments like these ones where you realize and accept how small what you are thinking is in comparison to the vastness surrounding you. But it also means you have so much opportunity to learn and grow. I got out of bed and followed my normal early morning routine, then sat down on the couch with my coffee and started this post. But I started just writing whatever was in my mind… and that’s where the first paragraph came from. A moment. That’s all it takes for something to quickly change from bad to good, or good to bad. And these things happen around us, often without our control or knowledge of it even occurring.
No special point today. I’m not saying “Live life to the fullest.” I’m not realizing “It could all end in a moment’s notice.” I’m not suggesting we all make some sort of change. Just saying I took a moment… five moments… to use my senses to understand what was happening inside and outside of me. And this is where I ended up. Where will you end up?
About Me & the “365 Daily Challenge”
I’m Jay and I live in NYC. By profession, I work in technology. By passion, I work in writing. I’ve always been a reader. And now I’m a daily blogger. I decided to start my own version of the “365 Daily Challenge” where since March 13, 2017, I’ve posted a characteristic either I currently embody or one I’d like to embody in the future. 365 days of reflection to discover who I am and what I want out of life.
The goal: Knowledge. Acceptance. Understanding. Optimization. Happiness. Help. For myself. For others. And if all else fails, humor. When I’m finished in one year, I hope to have more answers about the future and what I will do with the remainder of my life. All aspects to be considered. It’s not just about a career, hobbies, residence, activities, efforts, et al. It’s meant to be a comprehensive study and reflection from an ordinary man. Not a doctor. Not a therapist. Not a friend. Not an encyclopedia full of prior research. Just pure thought, a blogged journal with true honesty.
Join the fun and read a new post each day, or check out my book reviews, TV/Film reviews or favorite vacation spots. And feel free to like, rate, comment or take the poll for each post. Note: All written content is my original creation and copyrighted to me, but the graphics and images were linked from other sites and belong to them. Many thanks to their original creators.