Immensity: the extremely large size, scale, or extent of something
After a month of taking a break from writing while beta readers reviewed the last draft of Father Figure, my second novel, and processing through a few emotional weeks, I plan to get back to work this afternoon on my revisions and edits. It’s important to take a break when your mind needs to recover. Although not an immense revelation, it is an eye-opening one when you know you need to allow time for rest among creativity.
While I was searching for the journals last weekend, I stumbled upon a collection of poems I wrote in college (twenty years ago). I may have posted a few on my site in the past, but this one was always the starting point for me; it’s also the one poem I’ve written that I usually can recite verbatim without reading it off a screen or printed paper. When I read the actual words from the journal this morning, I smiled at my own revelation… part of the title of my first book came from this poem — and I hadn’t even realized it.
Since my creativity today needs to focus on starting the edits so that I can finish Father Figure in the next two weeks, I choose to post an old poem as part of today’s 365 Daily Challenge. Some may see this as a painful poem, but for me, it was always about recognizing a reality and finding a way to accept a path. I hope you enjoy it…
The Immensity of a Revelation
There’s something I just realized
That I never knew before.
I can’t explain the reasons,
But I know that I want more.
Have you ever wanted something,
But were too afraid to ask?
So you wrestle within yourself,
Finding it quite an abstract task.
With every hour that Maneuvers on,
Truth shows me what I want.
I search for what it finds,
Looking in the wrong places.
I don’t ever want to be alone.
Do I have to dream forever?
Like glass shattering into pieces,
Will I then begin to vanish?
I need to taste the Passion
Of having what is mine.
Even though it’s so easy to hold,
I settle for things unkind.
Thus I question “Was I wrong?”
I decide no longer to move on.
Life has given me this sentence
I must follow – despite the pain.
Why won’t I let myself go after it?
Why am I stuck with such a curse?
Why can others make things happen?
Why do I sit back and to my wounds just nurse?
I don’t pretend to know the answers.
I’ve learned I am only here to suffer.
And to realize that Truth
Will never be mine.
About Me & the “365 Daily Challenge”
I’m Jay, an author who lives in NYC. My debut novel, Watching Glass Shatter, can be purchased on Amazon @ http://mybook.to/WGS. I’ve always been a reader. And now I’m a daily blogger. I decided to start my own version of the “365 Daily Challenge” where since March 13, 2017, I’ve posted a characteristic either I currently embody or one I’d like to embody in the future. 365 days of reflection to discover who I am and what I want out of life.
The goal: Knowledge. Acceptance. Understanding. Optimization. Happiness. Help. For myself. For others. And if all else fails, humor. When I’m finished in one year, I hope to have more answers about the future and what I will do with the remainder of my life. All aspects to be considered. It’s not just about a career, hobbies, residence, activities, efforts, et al. It’s meant to be a comprehensive study and reflection from an ordinary man. Not a doctor. Not a therapist. Not a friend. Not an encyclopedia full of prior research. Just pure thought, a blogged journal with true honesty.
Join the fun and read a new post each day, or check out my book reviews, TV/Film reviews or favorite vacation spots. And feel free to like, rate, comment or take the poll for each post. Note: All written content is my original creation and copyrighted to me, but the graphics and images were linked from other sites and belong to them. Many thanks to their original creators.