Boredom: the state of feeling weary because one is unoccupied or lacks interest in one’s current activity
“When you pay attention to boredom it gets unbelievably interesting.” Jon Kabat-Zinn
I sat for 15 minute this morning staring at my computer screen attempting to choose today’s 365 Daily Challenge word. I have posts for tomorrow through Sunday already drafted (still need to proofread and format), but today I couldn’t summon anything valuable. I thought about how I’m feeling right now, and the best way I could explain it would be to say I’m bored. Before anyone starts to pass activities and tasks to me, it’s not that I don’t have anything I should do. It’s that I’m really not mentally in a place where I can or want to do anything that I should be doing. It’s rather indulgent of me, and I admit it. My only saving grace is that nearly every other day of the year, I work extremely hard, am very focused and dedicated, and push myself to do as much as possible. So… a breather every so often seems acceptable.
I mentioned a few weeks ago that I felt like I’d lost my purpose after Ryder died. Everyone’s comments and advice have been quite helpful; I’m appreciative. As I settle back into a routine, I find myself doing things a bit more haphazardly than in the past. I applied to several corporate / technology positions and went on an interview this week. I’m not sure I know if it’s because I want to go back to work, I need to keep busy, I am just testing the waters or I’m experiencing a bit of boredom. I love writing and I am very close to finishing Father Figure, which will be a great accomplishment. I have the outline completed for the Ethan Glass short story. I’m pondering the detailed plot and scope of the Watching Glass Shatter sequel. I also have a few other stories floating in my head, which are beginning to form and gel into something I find quite interesting. But in truth… I think I need a bit of a challenge somewhere else right now. I need to learn or focus on how to improve something so that I feel a momentum in knowledge.
I typed ‘boredom’ into a Google search. A few quotes were returned. I found the one I included above quite apropos. Jon Kabat-Zinn is an American professor of medicine, but that’s all I really know about him. Paying attention to the boredom is important. I think that’s what I should be doing this week — to see how often I find myself unsettled or uncertain. Although I’m sure everyone understands, I’m just thinking aloud right now. I’m not truly bored, as there is plenty to accomplish between now and March 17th; my target goals to complete Father Figure, Ethan’s short story and the 365 Daily Challenge. I’ll be on a birthday trip that week, then finalizing my two-week May trip to London and Italy. There will be time in between that I perhaps should be something to shake up the state of boredom I’m describing. We’ve all been there, whether it’s a ten-minute mental relaxation technique or weeks of doing nothing to re-set our mindsets. Sometimes it even just helps to say it aloud — and recognize the interesting things you can learn in and among it. That’s all today’s post is… a random release of fleeting thoughts!
About Me & the “365 Daily Challenge”
I’m Jay, an author who lives in NYC. My debut novel, Watching Glass Shatter, can be purchased on Amazon @ http://mybook.to/WGS. I’ve always been a reader. And now I’m a daily blogger. I decided to start my own version of the “365 Daily Challenge” where since March 13, 2017, I’ve posted a characteristic either I currently embody or one I’d like to embody in the future. 365 days of reflection to discover who I am and what I want out of life.
The goal: Knowledge. Acceptance. Understanding. Optimization. Happiness. Help. For myself. For others. And if all else fails, humor. When I’m finished in one year, I hope to have more answers about the future and what I will do with the remainder of my life. All aspects to be considered. It’s not just about a career, hobbies, residence, activities, efforts, et al. It’s meant to be a comprehensive study and reflection from an ordinary man. Not a doctor. Not a therapist. Not a friend. Not an encyclopedia full of prior research. Just pure thought, a blogged journal with true honesty.
Join the fun and read a new post each day, or check out my book reviews, TV/Film reviews or favorite vacation spots. And feel free to like, rate, comment or take the poll for each post. Note: All written content is my original creation and copyrighted to me, but the graphics and images were linked from other sites and belong to them. Many thanks to their original creators.