Book Review: A World Without Color by Bernard Jan

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A World Without Color: A True Story Of the Last Three Days With My CatA World Without Color: A True Story Of the Last Three Days With My Cat by Bernard Jan

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

When you lose a cherished pet, sometimes the loss is so inexplicable, all you can do is cry. When I had to let go of my ten-year-old shiba inu just about a year ago, it was a painful 2-week process. It is nearly impossible to put into words for most people how you go about making the decision to end an animal’s pain, begin your own, and suffer the consequences. Not impossible tho, as proven by Bernard Jan in the second book of his I’ve read this year. Jan lost his beloved cat, Marcel, and shares the emotional turmoil he encountered throughout the process.

This book is ~100 pages covering the three days when Jan and his family know they have to say goodbye. His words and imagery are stellar… honestly… he captures all those emotions pet-parents go through trying to rationalize our decisions, understand the whys, convince ourselves we will be okay, and determine how or if we can lean on anyone around us. By showcasing Marcel’s movements and struggles, we see the pain Jan’s family has gone through. It is visceral and constant. It is harsh and definitive. It is widespread and menacing.

I had to put the book down several times as it brought me to tears thinking of my own pet loss this year. Jan is brave. He shares everything from the moment he adopted the cat to the treasures of their ~15 year life together. As a younger guy suffering through this, he’s developing all his emotions and reactions to something he’s truly not ready to handle. I say this not because Jan’s not strong enough (he is), but because this is one of his earliest life experiences dealing with death. It is never easy. But to write about it and share those feelings, notions, worries, and sighs of relief when it’s all over (even tho it really isn’t) is remarkable.

Translated into English, the creators of this version are masterful in their descriptions. The comparisons… similes… references… moments… all bring readers to experience as closely as possible what the author experienced. If you’ve never gone thru it, it’s probably not fully apparent. Human loss is different… agreeably more harsh in most circumstances, but when your pet cannot talk to tell you what kind of pain they have, you are the sole person responsible for deciding how to help them.

I felt the intensity from Jan’s writing, and I recommend this for anyone who has a pet and/or is coping with [or the potential] loss. It might not be a good idea to read it as you’re going thru it depending on what kind of person you are and how you handle grief, but it’s something you should read when you are starting to recover. Thank you for sharing this truly humbling work, Bernard Jan.

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For those new to me or my reviews… here’s the scoop: I’m Jay, an author who lives in NYC. My stand-alone novels, Watching Glass Shatter and Father Figure, can be purchased on Amazon as electronic copies or physical copies. The debut book, Academic Curveball, in my new mystery series, Braxton Campus Mysteries will fit those who love cozy mysteries and crime investigations. I read, write, and blog A LOT. First the book review goes on Goodreads, and then I send it on over to my WordPress blog at, where you’ll find the revealing and introspective 365 Daily Challenge –and multiple Readathons. You can also find all my social media profiles to get the details on the who/what/when/where and my pictures. Leave a comment and let me know what you think. Thanks for stopping by. Note: All written content is my original creation and copyrighted to me, but the graphics and images were linked from other sites and belong to them. Many thanks to their original creators. Follow my blog with Bloglovin.


17 thoughts on “Book Review: A World Without Color by Bernard Jan

    Priyasha said:
    December 19, 2018 at 4:36 AM

    5 STARS wow😍

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    Lolsy's Library said:
    December 19, 2018 at 4:40 AM

    Ohhhhh, I don’t know if I could read this one, but I really want too!

    Liked by 1 person

    Mischenko said:
    December 19, 2018 at 4:49 AM

    Love this book. ❤ Amazing review!

    Liked by 1 person

    Kiersten said:
    December 19, 2018 at 6:40 AM

    I might have to check this one out soon. (When I’m ready.) Two weeks ago I had to put Beaker down, after almost 14 years of having him. It’s still rough.

    Thank you for recommending this.

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      James J. Cudney IV responded:
      December 19, 2018 at 7:55 AM

      Oh no! I’m so sorry. I’ve not been reading blogs a lot lately and didn’t know it. Big hugs. Yes, this might help, but wait a few weeks.

      It took me almost a month after Ryder passed away to be able to talk about him. I’m here if you need to chat. xoxo

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        Kiersten said:
        December 19, 2018 at 9:00 AM

        Thank you, I really appreciate it. ❤ I hope you and the new pup are doing well.

        Liked by 1 person

    Martie said:
    December 19, 2018 at 7:57 AM

    It sounds wonderful but I’m not sure I could read it. As someone who knows how much my pets are my family, and who has lost a few over the years, with an elderly dog at the moment, I am not sure. I you as the reviewer for bringing this book onto the radar.

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      James J. Cudney IV responded:
      December 19, 2018 at 8:02 AM

      It’s a wonderful book, but definitely one to read a few weeks / months after something happens, or not anywhere near when your pet is sick. Jan’s a fantastic writer, but the emotions will run high. Definitely worth it when you feel ready tho.

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    Shalini said:
    December 19, 2018 at 8:12 AM

    Oh… I don’t think I can read this Jay💖

    Liked by 1 person

    Beware Of The Reader said:
    December 19, 2018 at 1:55 PM

    I don’t know how you could read it Jay! I think I would have been a wreck!

    Liked by 1 person

    Rae Longest said:
    January 11, 2019 at 5:28 PM

    Your review is lovely, Hon, but I couldn’t bear to read the book.

    Liked by 1 person

      James J. Cudney IV responded:
      January 11, 2019 at 5:51 PM

      I understand… it’s an emotional one. Hope that trip is looking positive for you to NY soon!

      Liked by 1 person

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