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365 Daily Challenge: Day 145 – Void

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Void: (a) completely empty space, or (b) not valid or legally binding

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In the space where there should be a 365 Daily Challenge post today, you will unfortunately find a big black hole known as the void. The idea, courtesy of Roda @ Growing Self, was created due to the complete lack of any true creativity still remaining inside of the brain of the owner and operator of the ThisIsMyTruthNow blog. You know him as either Jay or James. He’s often accused of having multiple personalities, so if you ever pick up on that, no need to be alarmed. For the most part, they are all generally good guys, except #7. Roda calls them the clones, and she’s determined that #7 specifically is a little wonky. Unfortunately, I am not permitted to meet any of these personalities/clones, given one of the rules is that we can’t co-exist in the same location at the same time. The mandates are quite complex, and my mind is not capable of sorting it all out, at least with the minimal amount of juice the brain has retained recently. Supposedly, if we did meet, there might be a bit of a cataclysmic event occurring in NYC.

I spent another six hours writing chapter 5 of Father Figure, and I’m quickly learning it’s one or the other when it comes to quality. After writing fiction for that long, I’m too exhausted to maintain any sort of witty or clever voice in these 365 posts. And if I write the post first, I find the voice in the novel isn’t as clear as I need it to be. I’ll work it out, but in the meantime, there might be a few days where I have a void inside my head instead of a brain. And in those times, I wonder whether it might be a cool idea to have a guest blogger takeover the 365 Daily Challenge for a day. Could be fun to get someone else’s perspective on the whole way I handle this theme. It would have to be someone I know well enough who could speak a little bit about me, though the blog wouldn’t be the normal 365 post. It would include a little introspection covering both of us, but completely up to the blogger in control for the word of the day and how it relates to us. Maybe it could even be a weekly idea on Mondays where it’s the “365 Daily Challenge brought to you by…”

Which brings me to the other definition of void. I apparently made this contract back on March 13th where I said I would post for 365 days about a personality trait or characteristic I either embody or want to have. Maybe one of the clones or personalities actually made this agreement, but I’m legally responsible per the terms upon discussion with my attorney. {Aside: The attorney is my significant other, who likes to remind me everything I say aloud is a formal agreement in his eyes. How is this fair?} I’ve followed the rules for 144 days, but would this guest post idea void that original contract? I certainly don’t want to get in trouble with any bad karma or juju for not doing what I said I’d do. Nor any legal action, though I’m not certain who it is that would allege the case against me. Can a clone sue me? Wait, can you sue yourself? Could Father Time (not Father Figure) exact revenge in the 365 momentum? Is that a real thing? These are the questions that weigh most on my mind right now.

I already have enough things to fight off in my life, don’t need to add another worry to the list. So it will keep going; however, I’m very much intrigued by this guest post thing — thanks to the lovely Linda @ Maine Paper Pusher who has a similar idea. I’m not stealing it. I might borrow the concept of another blogger participating on my blog, bound tightly together by the 365 Daily Challenge rules, bringing depth and exploration of our thoughts and emotions to the surface. And I owe Linda my own post for her Guest in Jest series at some point, as I said I’d participate and I very excited about it. Go check out her site… and don’t worry if you don’t today, she’ll be a Recommended Blogger later this month. Already on the list, but thought I’d give you a heads up here.

I’ve already got a 365 topic for Saturday, and on Sunday, I start the next 5 week list focusing on careers I’ve held in the past. There’s a few interesting ones I don’t know that everyone would expect, but will hopefully amuse everyone. Another way to incorporate today’s word is to acknowledge that I’m aVOIDing this entire post by choosing the easy way out. Contrary to the lovely graphic above this paragraph, sometimes the brain just doesn’t wanna work. We’ve all been there. It’s not like we can be on or online 24/7, cause that’s a lot of time to constantly be awake, alert, aware and able to generate fantastic content. I shoot for a 50% ratio: 50% good, 49% failure and 1% epic failure. It’s still marginally on the equal side, even if epic drags it down a little bit more than I’d like. So… what have we learned today:

  1. A void in the head means none in the heart: I still love you all.
  2. I am not legally allowed to void the 365 Daily Challenge contract. And despite my theory that all rules are meant to be broken, this one is worse than trying to get honey off your finger tips — or the faucet when you’re finally done scrubbing up.
  3. A void is not necessarily a bad place to wind up, assuming you wisely use the blank time for the greater good of the future. A break from listening to me whine.
  4. Roda will be singing “If I only had a brain” to me all day today based on our discussion yesterday evening. I take comfort in knowing I’m not the only one who gets that song stuck in his/her head from time to time.
  5. While a void means completely empty, it’s probably not something I can actually apply to myself. As I’ve managed to babble on for a few hundred words, which means there is still something rattling around among the cobwebs. See what 6+ hours of sleep can do for you?

And as I was doing a final check on this post, a void actually appeared in my head again. In September, I will be on vacation for two weeks, which is great. But how do I handle the 365 Daily Challenge? It’s the first time I’ve gone away for more than 3 days since starting this blog series nearly six months ago. Do I pre-plan 15 posts, which is A LOT of work? Do I go on a temporary hiatus, but again, does that break the rules? Does a guest take over and run rampant on This Is My Truth Now? Oh… it hurts… I need to go back to sleep and aVOID thinking about this.

 

RECOMMENDED BLOGGER

  • Today’s 365 Daily Challenge recommended blogger to know is Betty @IdahoBlueBird50. Betty Louise and I met about 3 months ago through her WordPress blog and her Goodreads book reviews. She has a love of cozy mystery novels just as much as (if not more than) I do. We have shared numerous book reviews with one another, finding new authors to research and bringing back memories of books read many years ago. I also thought at one point in time we might be related as when I learned her last name, it matched one in my family who lived in a state near hers. In the end, I don’t think we are, but it was a wonderful potential connection. Betty’s on multiple social media sites — you must check out her different profiles, especially once you realize how tech savvy she’s become even though she won’t admit it! She’s a wonderful woman to share a few thoughts with on recent cozy mysteries and has been very open with sharing parts of her life and things she’s witnessed in her 8 decades. If you don’t believe me, check out her very detailed About Me section, which I’ve included below:
    • “Member of Netgalley. Senior Citizen and been reading and sharing my thoughts on books most of my life. I read for my pleasure. I have been married for 60 years and we have a Bengal Cat, Kato. Interests include reading, dogs, cats, gardening, knitting, crocheting. I have a strong interest in North American native plants. A word on my reviews. Books review are from my public library, brought, many from Netgalley, a few from Edelweiss, occasionally from an author or from friends. The opinions are my own. I represent no publisher, author or another source​. My reviews can be found on Amazon, Tumblr, Goodreads, Google+. I have no Facebook or Twitter accounts. Thanks for reading my blog.”

 

About Me & the “365 Daily Challenge”

I’m Jay and I live in NYC. By profession, I work in technology. By passion, I work as a writer. My first novel, Watching a Glass shatter, is currently in reviews with literary agents and publishers. My second novel, Father Figure, is being written with a target to send to the publisher in December, 2017. But I’ve always been a reader. And now I’m a daily blogger. I decided to start my own version of the “365 Daily Challenge” where since March 13, 2017, I’ve posted a characteristic either I currently embody or one I’d like to embody in the future. 365 days of reflection to discover who I am and what I want out of life.

The goal: Knowledge. Acceptance. Understanding. Optimization. Happiness. Help. For myself. For others. And if all else fails, humor. When I’m finished in one year, I hope to have more answers about the future and what I will do with the remainder of my life. All aspects to be considered. It’s not just about a career, hobbies, residence, activities, efforts, et al. It’s meant to be a comprehensive study and reflection from an ordinary man. Not a doctor. Not a therapist. Not a friend. Not an encyclopedia full of prior research. Just pure thought, a blogged journal with true honesty.

Join the fun and read a new post each day, or check out my book reviews, TV/Film reviews or favorite vacation spots. And feel free to like, rate, comment or take the poll for each post. Note: All written content is my original creation and copyrighted to me, but the graphics and images were linked from other sites and belong to them. Many thanks to their original creators.

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365 Challenge: Day 107 – Idle

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Idle: without purpose or effect; pointless; avoiding work; lazy

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As an advanced warning, today’s post will be an exaggerated one to wake myself up. And it’s not about a car engine or someone patiently waiting for someone to arrive. It’s 100% about me, as I had a moment this morning where I realized I am absolutely, positively, certainly, and any other definitive word, being IDLE about something. You’ve probably read at least one post where I’ve talked about trying to figure out my next career, searching for a job or looking for an agent for the book I’ve written. And on the outskirts, I must seem pretty busy and prolific in all that I’m doing. Well… it seems I must confess that I’ve been lying to you, by way of lying to myself, by omission and tunnel vision, that is…

I claim to be smart. I pontificate about how focused I can be. I tell everyone how I’m determined to achieve my goals. Yeah, sure, that’s all true. But I’m not practicing what I preach, and I am starting to realize it more and more as each 365 Daily Challenge post is released. A few pieces of background information to set the stage… I actually am an extremely hardworking individual. I have an incredible passion for what I want to do. I usually achieve more than feasible in any given period of time. My former career and frequent promotions serve as evidence. The project plans I’ve kept to achieve so many goals clearly speak for themselves. That I wrote my 400 page novel in less than 2 months supports these statements. And the 500 book reviews I’ve written in the last year certainly show my stamina. But you know what? Somehow I got off-track in the last few months… and I became idle.

And here’s how I know why… for someone who claims to have needed a few months rest and re-focus so he could plan his future… for someone who wanted to make a giant leap into a new and different future… for someone who provides so many thoughts and advice to others in the 365 Daily Challenge, here are also some facts you deserve to know:

  • I am not consistently sending out my query letters to potential agents.
    • How will it get published if I don’t do this?
  • I have not researched the Amazon self-publishing route.
    • How will I have a back-up plan if I don’t find a traditional publisher?
  • I have not truly started the second book.
    • How will I have more works to be published without putting myself on a writing schedule?
  • I have not joined any writer’s groups or developed stronger relationships with writers.
    • Who is going to push me and help provide guidance?
  • I haven’t connected with publishers and online sites to get my name out there.
    • How will people know of me as more than just a blogger and book reviewer?
  • I spend at least 6 hours a day sitting on my ass, reading other people’s posts and reviews on all the social media sites but don’t have any sort of regular plan or approach.
    • If I’m so inconsistent, how will people trust me?

So… since I always put myself out there… it was important for me to say these things aloud — to recognize them and be fair and honest. It’s all fixable. I strayed. I went off track. But if I want to pursue a different future, well then I better get off my ass and get back to what has made me so successful in the past. I’m wallowing in my self-pity and it ain’t a pretty sight. No… this isn’t a pity party… and I promise you, I don’t need anyone to tell me “it’s good you realized it now and can change it.”

I need everyone to hold me accountable… to push me for content, to partner on changes for the future… and to ask to see some sort of a plan within the next 7 days. Because if I want something… or if you want something… how is doing the same thing every day hoping it achieves a different outcome anything other than the definition of insanity?

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That’s the line in my sand. This week I write my project plan. It’s always made things more clear and organized in the past. And next Monday, I will start the second half of 2017 with my formal plan in place to achieve my goals in publishing, writing and reviewing.

I will get back to being me!

 

About Me & the “365 Daily Challenge”

I’m Jay and I live in NYC. By profession, I work in technology. By passion, I work in writing. I’ve always been a reader. And now I’m a daily blogger. I decided to start my own version of the “365 Daily Challenge” where since March 13, 2017, I’ve posted a characteristic either I currently embody or one I’d like to embody in the future. 365 days of reflection to discover who I am and what I want out of life.

The goal: Knowledge. Acceptance. Understanding. Optimization. Happiness. Help. For myself. For others. And if all else fails, humor. When I’m finished in one year, I hope to have more answers about the future and what I will do with the remainder of my life. All aspects to be considered. It’s not just about a career, hobbies, residence, activities, efforts, et al. It’s meant to be a comprehensive study and reflection from an ordinary man. Not a doctor. Not a therapist. Not a friend. Not an encyclopedia full of prior research. Just pure thought, a blogged journal with true honesty.

Join the fun and read a new post each day, or check out my book reviews, TV/Film reviews or favorite vacation spots. And feel free to like, rate, comment or take the poll for each post. Note: All written content is my original creation and copyrighted to me, but the graphics and images were linked from other sites and belong to them. Many thanks to their original creators.