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365 Challenge: Day 319 – Immensity

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Immensity: the extremely large size, scale, or extent of something

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After a month of taking a break from writing while beta readers reviewed the last draft of Father Figure, my second novel, and processing through a few emotional weeks, I plan to get back to work this afternoon on my revisions and edits. It’s important to take a break when your mind needs to recover. Although not an immense revelation, it is an eye-opening one when you know you need to allow time for rest among creativity.

While I was searching for the journals last weekend, I stumbled upon a collection of poems I wrote in college (twenty years ago). I may have posted a few on my site in the past, but this one was always the starting point for me; it’s also the one poem I’ve written that I usually can recite verbatim without reading it off a screen or printed paper. When I read the actual words from the journal this morning, I smiled at my own revelation… part of the title of my first book came from this poem — and I hadn’t even realized it.

Since my creativity today needs to focus on starting the edits so that I can finish Father Figure in the next two weeks, I choose to post an old poem as part of today’s 365 Daily Challenge. Some may see this as a painful poem, but for me, it was always about recognizing a reality and finding a way to accept a path. I hope you enjoy it…

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The Immensity of a Revelation

There’s something I just realized

That I never knew before.

I can’t explain the reasons,

But I know that I want more.

Have you ever wanted something,

But were too afraid to ask?

So you wrestle within yourself,

Finding it quite an abstract task.

With every hour that Maneuvers on,

Truth shows me what I want.

I search for what it finds,

Looking in the wrong places.

I don’t ever want to be alone.

Do I have to dream forever?

Like glass shattering into pieces,

Will I then begin to vanish?

I need to taste the Passion

Of having what is mine.

Even though it’s so easy to hold,

I settle for things unkind.

Thus I question “Was I wrong?”

I decide no longer to move on.

Life has given me this sentence

I must follow – despite the pain.

Why won’t I let myself go after it?

Why am I stuck with such a curse?

Why can others make things happen?

Why do I sit back and to my wounds just nurse?

I don’t pretend to know the answers.

I’ve learned I am only here to suffer.

And to realize that Truth

Will never be mine.

 

About Me & the “365 Daily Challenge”

I’m Jay, an author who lives in NYC. My debut novel, Watching Glass Shatter, can be purchased on Amazon @ http://mybook.to/WGS. I’ve always been a reader. And now I’m a daily blogger. I decided to start my own version of the “365 Daily Challenge” where since March 13, 2017, I’ve posted a characteristic either I currently embody or one I’d like to embody in the future. 365 days of reflection to discover who I am and what I want out of life.

The goal: Knowledge. Acceptance. Understanding. Optimization. Happiness. Help. For myself. For others. And if all else fails, humor. When I’m finished in one year, I hope to have more answers about the future and what I will do with the remainder of my life. All aspects to be considered. It’s not just about a career, hobbies, residence, activities, efforts, et al. It’s meant to be a comprehensive study and reflection from an ordinary man. Not a doctor. Not a therapist. Not a friend. Not an encyclopedia full of prior research. Just pure thought, a blogged journal with true honesty.

Join the fun and read a new post each day, or check out my book reviews, TV/Film reviews or favorite vacation spots. And feel free to like, rate, comment or take the poll for each post. Note: All written content is my original creation and copyrighted to me, but the graphics and images were linked from other sites and belong to them. Many thanks to their original creators.

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365 Challenge: Day 276 – Women

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Women: (a) person of the female species, or (b) a website worth checking out today for a post they did on a character from my novel, Watching Glass Shatter

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Today’s message is brief. I was honored to be a guest on Christy Birmingham’s ‘When Women Inspire’ blog today. Her blog, focused on amazing women, gave me the opportunity to talk about the lead character, a woman, in my novel, Watching Glass Shatter. Please check out this post to see all about Olivia Glass, but then spend a lot more time checking out Christy’s website. It’s fantastic. Thank you to her for this chance!

Link: Author James J. Cudney IV on Writing an Inspiring Female Character

 

About Me & the “365 Daily Challenge”

I’m Jay, an author who lives in NYC. My debut novel, Watching Glass Shatter, can be purchased on Amazon @ http://mybook.to/WGS. I’ve always been a reader. And now I’m a daily blogger. I decided to start my own version of the “365 Daily Challenge” where since March 13, 2017, I’ve posted a characteristic either I currently embody or one I’d like to embody in the future. 365 days of reflection to discover who I am and what I want out of life.

The goal: Knowledge. Acceptance. Understanding. Optimization. Happiness. Help. For myself. For others. And if all else fails, humor. When I’m finished in one year, I hope to have more answers about the future and what I will do with the remainder of my life. All aspects to be considered. It’s not just about a career, hobbies, residence, activities, efforts, et al. It’s meant to be a comprehensive study and reflection from an ordinary man. Not a doctor. Not a therapist. Not a friend. Not an encyclopedia full of prior research. Just pure thought, a blogged journal with true honesty.

Join the fun and read a new post each day, or check out my book reviews, TV/Film reviews or favorite vacation spots. And feel free to like, rate, comment or take the poll for each post. Note: All written content is my original creation and copyrighted to me, but the graphics and images were linked from other sites and belong to them. Many thanks to their original creators.

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Watching Glass Shatter: Blog Tour Day 13 – Everyone Else Has the Best Titles

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Linda is today’s 13th stop on the Watching Glass Shatter blog tour. She’s taken a different route to help promoting the book by asking hilarious questions (some submitted by her amazing followers). I might have revealed more than I should have!

Thank you to her for being such a great friend and part of this launch team. She’s awesome and if you haven’t seen her blog before, you will find something funny every day… go check out today’s post and then scroll back over the last few weeks. You may not escape without a serious chuckle!

via Q&A With James Cudney, Author Of Watching Glass Shatter

365 Challenge: Day 208 – Clone

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Clone: duplicate copy doing the work ’cause Dad is losing his mind!

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Hey, it’s Ryder. Not my normal day, but Dad needed help. He’s freaking out because the publisher sent the final copy for editing for ‘Watching Glass Shatter.’ He’s busily reviewing as they want to start pre-sales launch in the next week. He’ll be back on the weekend to post. For now, he’s got clones working around the clock on all 350 pages. Thanks for telling him what to do, Roda @ GrowingSelf. It’s helped him get more done.  Peace Out!

 

About Me & the “365 Daily Challenge”

I’m Jay and I live in NYC. By profession, I work in technology. By passion, I work in writing. I’ve always been a reader. And now I’m a daily blogger. I decided to start my own version of the “365 Daily Challenge” where since March 13, 2017, I’ve posted a characteristic either I currently embody or one I’d like to embody in the future. 365 days of reflection to discover who I am and what I want out of life.

The goal: Knowledge. Acceptance. Understanding. Optimization. Happiness. Help. For myself. For others. And if all else fails, humor. When I’m finished in one year, I hope to have more answers about the future and what I will do with the remainder of my life. All aspects to be considered. It’s not just about a career, hobbies, residence, activities, efforts, et al. It’s meant to be a comprehensive study and reflection from an ordinary man. Not a doctor. Not a therapist. Not a friend. Not an encyclopedia full of prior research. Just pure thought, a blogged journal with true honesty.

Join the fun and read a new post each day, or check out my book reviews, TV/Film reviews or favorite vacation spots. And feel free to like, rate, comment or take the poll for each post. Note: All written content is my original creation and copyrighted to me, but the graphics and images were linked from other sites and belong to them. Many thanks to their original creators.

My Novel: ‘Watching Glass Shatter’ — Listed on Goodreads

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Beginning today, my novel, ‘Watching Glass Shatter’ is officially listed on Goodreads as a book. The cover is currently in design phase while the publisher begins to create the formats for paperback and electronic readers. I will keep you posted on the progress in the coming weeks. For now, you can find the link below to see the book on Goodreads:

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/36140949-watching-glass-shatter?ac=1&from_search=true

 

My author website is in development but will be another WordPress website you can follow. You can reach the link at:  https://jamescudney4.com

Watching Glass Shatter

Beginning today, my novel, ‘Watching Glass Shatter’ is officially listed on Goodreads as a book. The cover is currently in design phase while the publisher begins to create the formats for paperback and electronic readers. I will keep you posted on the progress in the coming weeks. For now, you can find the link below to see the book on Goodreads:

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/36140949-watching-glass-shatter?ac=1&from_search=true

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As we begin to create a marketing and publishing plan, I will start a weekly post on “Watching a Glass Shatter” just like I’m doing on “Father Figure.” If you’d like to get involved at any point, I’m absolutely open to help from friends and fans. Success is not built on one person’s back alone, but on the collaboration of a brilliant team of people dedicated to making a difference.

My author website is in development but will be another WordPress website you can follow. You can reach…

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365 Challenge: Day 159 – Kaleidoscope

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Kaleidoscope: a toy consisting of a tube containing mirrors and pieces of colored glass or paper, whose reflections produce changing patterns that are visible through an eye hole when the tube is rotated; a constantly changing pattern or sequence of objects or elements.

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Yesterday’s 365 Daily Challenge word — ‘sleepy’ — had been apropos when you consider how very short the post was… I rushed around in the morning to finish shopping and packing for a long weekend getaway, then had a few hours of travel, followed by a little exploration once I arrived on Fire Island via nearly every mode of transportation: subway, car, bus, ferry and walking. By the time we got the house situated and cooked dinner, I was exhausted and went to sleep early. I had two things planned for the 365 Daily Challenge words that I couldn’t get done, which means they will be today’s and tomorrow’s words. So, let’s rewind to the start of it all on yesterday:

As I took my seat on the ferry, nearly the last available, I looked around at the several hundred patrons who bordered the boat on it’s 20-minute jaunt across the water to Fire Island, one of the barrier islands off the coast of the southern shore of Long Island. There appeared a kaleidoscope of men and women, all who immediately created a cast of characters on a little adventure I’d suddenly created in my mind. A kaleidoscope full of mirrors, colors, patterns, paper and glass that assembled a little toy for my amusement!

The word comes from ancient Greece. Children play with these toys by admiring all the pretty images that materialize when rotating or turning the device in front of their eyes. It’s a bit like life… at least that’s what weighed on my mind as I strolled through the rest of my evening and fell into an erratic slumber. Although a friend had taken the ferry over with me, he slept in the other bedroom in the beach house we’d rented for the week(end). I’m not one to frighten easily, but when I’m on an island full of strangers, in an unfamiliar house, with two entrances / exits into my bedroom, poor eyesight and tons of glass windows, everything seems a bit different, as though what I’m looking through during the night is a very different kaleidoscope than what one sees during the bright sunny morning or afternoon.

Tomorrow’s post will have pictures of the house and beach, as well as a bit more about Fire Island. Today’s is about how it’s such a different world than the one I normally live in. Let’s cover the five words that appear in the definition, but know in advance, I’m being quite philosophical and ethereal in today’s discussion:

Mirror

  • The island is a myriad of people, one where I see myself in so many others. The reflection presented to me as I pass by people on the boardwalk or in the grocery store, the images of someone I once was and someone I’m soon to be. It’s truly a remarkable range of patrons who frequent this wonderful escape. And among each person you meet, you find all the qualities you dislike in others, but also everything you have always admired. People are not afraid to be who they are here. It’s a place of freedom and an open mindset. I think the water, the sand, the trees, and the casual parts of life are so prevalent, it’s not possible to hide from others or even yourself. It’s as though the camera is always actively on alert among the mirrors that seem to follow you wherever you go.

Color

  • If there ever were a place where the color of someone’s skin didn’t matter, this would be it. I’m not sure anyone even notices these characteristics in others when you are here. It might even be the polar opposite; there are those who search out someone who is ‘different’ from themselves, purely to experience an ability to get to know as many people and cultures as you can. It’s a veritable multitude of every race and ethnicity where the more distinct you are, the more someone wants to meet you.

Pattern

  • I’ve been coming here for five summers and the patterns of behavior are quite apparent. Do you go to the house or purchase groceries first? Do you buy a few bottles of liquor or have everything delivered? Do you jump in the pool or go to the beach? Everyone has their way of doing things, not unlike the patterns of our lives when we go to work, cook meals or sleep. But the routines here offer relaxation and comfort with little distraction or frustration. It’s how life should always be!

Paper

  • Paper drives all that we do. It’s a bit of the glue that holds business together. Or at least it’s been that way in the past. Mobile and digital technology will take over the world, which you can clearly see by the way everyone walks around here… phone in hand, collecting and posting pictures, checking on where friends are staying, searching for people to meet. But there are those of us who love a good card or board game, reading a newspaper or remembering to recycle. The heat gets quite intense here, and paper often leads to many fires. There are a at least a few every summer, burning through homes and leaving charred remains. Paper is the enemy in these sorts and is often not very present.

Glass

  • All the houses have huge windows with amazing views. It’s always about what you can see by looking out the window, down to the coastline or across the trees to the bay. Glass is an essential part of a beach house, necessary to create the most picturesque viewpoints possible. But glass is also the container for every bottle of liquor which is consumed in great quantities at the beach. It glistens when the sun shines, it’s in everyone’s hands… in abundance no matter where you look.

Fire Island feels like my kaleidoscope this weekend. Hopefully you enjoyed the escape from the norm among the 365 Daily Challenge. I wanted to share a little bit of where I am this weekend. Have you ever been here before? Perhaps somewhere quite similar? Feel free to share…

 

About Me & the “365 Daily Challenge”

I’m Jay and I live in NYC. By profession, I work in technology. By passion, I work in writing. I’ve always been a reader. And now I’m a daily blogger. I decided to start my own version of the “365 Daily Challenge” where since March 13, 2017, I’ve posted a characteristic either I currently embody or one I’d like to embody in the future. 365 days of reflection to discover who I am and what I want out of life.

The goal: Knowledge. Acceptance. Understanding. Optimization. Happiness. Help. For myself. For others. And if all else fails, humor. When I’m finished in one year, I hope to have more answers about the future and what I will do with the remainder of my life. All aspects to be considered. It’s not just about a career, hobbies, residence, activities, efforts, et al. It’s meant to be a comprehensive study and reflection from an ordinary man. Not a doctor. Not a therapist. Not a friend. Not an encyclopedia full of prior research. Just pure thought, a blogged journal with true honesty.

Join the fun and read a new post each day, or check out my book reviews, TV/Film reviews or favorite vacation spots. And feel free to like, rate, comment or take the poll for each post. Note: All written content is my original creation and copyrighted to me, but the graphics and images were linked from other sites and belong to them. Many thanks to their original creators.

My Novel: Watching a Glass Shatter

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It’s been a few months since I mentioned anything about my first novel, Watching a Glass Shatter, which prompted me to assemble this post as a way to share its current status. As you already know about the second book, Father Figure, I wanted to reveal a little more about the first.

Watching a Glass Shatter is the story of a ~65ish widow, Olivia Glass, who receives shocking news after the unexpected death of her husband, Ben. In a letter Ben left behind as part of his will, he confesses a secret about one of their five adult sons, but fails to specifically mention which one. Wretched with anger and fear, Olivia asks the attorney to investigate Rowena Hector, the mysterious woman whom Ben names in his last communication. While the attorney searches, Olivia embarks on a journey with each son to share one final moment and connection before the secret Ben kept must be revealed, ultimately changing the face of their family’s future.

Olivia has neglected her family over the years, losing touch as each son became a man and built his own life and family. She grew too focused on her place in society and her own needs that she failed to realize how to be a good mother. When she visits with her sons, Olivia learns they’ve been keeping secrets from her, too. The journey becomes not only about accepting the decision Ben made without her years ago, but to help prevent each of her sons from destroying their own lives with the secrets they’ve kept.

Theodore, the eldest, should be taking over the family law firm, yet his focus is anywhere but on the family business. When his wife intervenes, everything could change.

Matthew’s always been the dependable son, but his struggle is one that could have long-lasting impacts on the family if Olivia can’t help him learn how to survive.

Caleb chose to abandon his family a decade earlier, unable or unwilling to share his life with those whom he once held a strong bond. Will he even return at this point?

Zachary’s given his parents the most grief over the years. Olivia berates him over how he cares for his young daughter, unaware he might be strongest of them all.

Ethan is the youngest, finishing up the final steps to becoming a doctor and falling in love for the first time. But is the pressure getting too intense for him after the loss of his father?

The novel is about the relationships between brothers, husbands and wives, parents and children. The Glass family were once a strong brood, but blood can’t always keep you together when people’s fears and desires takeover. The story is told from the viewpoint of Olivia and each of the five sons, sharing the perspective and points of view from all angles. As the secrets slowly unfold, the Glass family begins to shatter. Olivia knows it needs to be her to break down the barriers and re-assemble what was once a powerful family. But time is running out in more ways than she knows. When she meets Rowena, the final pieces of the puzzle come together, placing the decision to reveal Ben’s secret in her hands, and her hands alone. Has she learned the lesson or will she make the same mistakes again? It’s her no-nonsense sister, Diane, who helps Olivia determine the path; however, the path is one neither of them could have predicted.

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My passion for this story is infinite. I lived and breathed the Glass family from September through December in 2016. It’s been through a few editing and beta reading stages in early 2017, and out with agents and publishers the last few months. I’m close to making a decision with a plan to publish the novel before the end of 2017.

If the story interests you, please check out the first three (3) chapters I’ve posted on the novel’s website:  https://theglassfamily.wordpress.com/watching-a-glass-shatter/

And tell me what you think! I’d love to hear from everyone. Thanks for reading.

 

-jay

 

About Me
I am a writer. I am currently searching for an agent and looking at independent publishing options for my first book, Watching a Glass Shatter. To see more, please check out the website for this novel where you will find the first 3 chapters, character bios and sample quotes.

I am writing my second novel, Father Figure, with plans to finish it in December, 2017. As part of the process to engage with my fans and followers, I am publishing a weekly status on the progress of this second book. For a description of this book, check out the post where my friends and followers voted for this book as my second novel.

Beyond these two books, I have a number of short stories, poems and other novels in various shapes and forms. I also read A LOT. First the book review goes on Goodreads, and then I send it on over to my WordPress blog at https://thisismytruthnow.com, where you’ll also find TV & Film reviews, Tags, Awards, Age/Genre/Book Reads and Author Spotlights, as well as the revealing and introspective 365 Daily Challenge.

You can also access my social media profiles to get the details on the who/what/when/where and my pictures. Leave a comment and let me know what you think. Vote in the poll and ratings. Thanks for stopping by. Note: All written content is my original creation and copyrighted to me, but the graphics and images were linked from other sites and belong to them. Many thanks to their original creators.